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this came out of nowhere

Discussion in 'Awesome Media' started by zero, Jan 25, 2005.

  1. zero

    zero OMG Member

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    this came out of nowhere

    I wrote this a while back, i figured it might bring joy to some who read it.








    I have no idea where this feeling of hopelessness came from, all I know is it?s here, and doesn?t seem to want to go away. I just keep thinking about how life is so boring, almost like its not worth living at times. This feeling came up on me all of a sudden this morning, and with no weed to combat it, it has been running its course through my sober mind like a rampaging beast through the wild jungles. How long do you have to know someone before scraping thier pipe?

    It?s hard to describe, like a cloak of darkness covering your soul. The moment I think I?m happy, It all closes in on me. I get the feeling that nothing will ever be fun again, that I?ll never smile, and that I will go nowhere from this point. The only thing that keeps me going now is the hope that this small pile of resin can help me out a bit. Who knows, mabey it will.

    The old clich? ?I need drugs to be happy? seems to describe me perfectly. Does that make me an addict? At this point I really don?t care what anyone thinks, this world is fucked anyways, and I will use whatever tools available to help ease my mind. Society?s preconceived notions can kiss my ass, If this is who I am, why fight it?

    Why even deny it? Hell yeah, I?m addicted to what I like to do, and mabey it is the only thing that makes me happy. Mabey it?s the only thing that stops me from being a homicidal maniac. Why would anyone even care, it?s my life, and I?ll live it how I want to. Ok, the resin scraping process is done.

    The first hit was good. To tell the truth, I?ve had this feeling before. The feeling of immobility, of time passing you by, of being trapped in a place you feel you are never going to ever leave.

    The second hit was even better. When I think back to the last time I was really depressed like this and think about the time inbetween, it proves that I was wrong. So much happened, and it was cool, though I never thought anything would be cool again ever. Yep, I was wrong that time.

    The third hit was nice, the fourth got me high. I?m beginning to see a new perspective on things. I think depression is a feeling that comes to us all, at some point in our lives, and we just have to find a way to deal with it. Whatever works right? And for me, resin worked.

    Ok, I?m high and I?ve taken off the dreary suicidal music I was listening to. My depression has been replaced by a happy indifference. I mean, if I am addicted, like I said earlier, it?s not to a drug, it?s to a happy feeling. It could be called an addiction to being a nicer person, or having a better outlook, or liking yourself or your world a little better. Jesus Christ, I can?t believe some people have the nerve to call drugs bad.

    Ok, Now I?m just pissed. Not depressed like earlier, not ?I hate the world?, more like ?I wanna kill the world?. And I want to do it myself. Personally. I got resin in my mouth, and we all know that can turn a nice smoke session into a disaster. Luckily, I got water. Only one drink, but it?s water none the less.

    Now I am coming to the realization that I scraped this chicks pipe. And it wont be the last time either, I plan on doing it again later. I have betrayed the sacred trust of another stoner. What a shitbag, I should be drug out in the street and beaten with cattle prods until??..or, wait, me? No. Someone else though for sure.

    I can?t even remember why I started writing this, I got really high off that resin. Wow. I?m impressed, a lot of weed doesn?t get me this high. It?s older resin, mabey it improves with age. Cause right now I only smoke new resin, and it never gets me this high. Hell, I might even pay for this shit. Well, no, no I wouldn?t, but it?s not bad for free.

    Anyways, um, yeah.
     
  2. Davidk

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    Hmm,

    Not quite sure what the point is, but besides a couple grammatical errors, it's well written.
     
  3. Madigan

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    hehehe

    I agree, it's well written. But like David, I was trying to figure out what the point was.
    When I got to David's response starting with "Hmm," and imagined the expression on his face I couldn't help but chuckle.

    No offense to either of you guys. I love reading your stuff Zero, but David just captured my thoughts on this entry perfectly.
     
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    Sorry,

    Hmm isn't grammatically correct, but sometimes it fits what I am doing at the time, :)
     
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    i had no point. it was a first person narrative
     
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    As others said, I couldn't find a point (but then you said it was a first person narrative), and for what it is, it's well written. Personally I don't think you can go wrong with first person narrative. You write what you feel, you just shove it all on paper. I usually never go back and correct them or look at them for actual writing skill, infact I rarely ever even post anything. I have a ton of stuff sitting in a little notebook ;)
     
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    zero

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    actually, this one did have a point. Now that i go back and read it, I see it.

    Its not easy to see if you are one of the "sober" ones.
     
  8. Madigan

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    Good comeback Zero! ;)

    Again, I assure you I meant no offense earlier. I understand your first person narrative, like a personal journal entry, is simply writing what one is thinking or feeling at a particular moment, and doesn't need to have a point or make sense to anyone else.
    It was still good reading.

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.
    Keep on writing and I'll keep reading. :)
     
  9. Davidk

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    Zero,

    What Madigan said, I apologize if you think any of my criticism's are harsh, I merely just post what I think, whether it be good or bad. I hope people do the same with my work that I post. I think honesty is the best answer.

    Now that I know it's a FP Narrative, It makes sense. Good job man, and thank you for helping keep this place active!
     
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    zero OMG Member

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    maybe i should give it a better name.
     
  11. Davidk

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    up to you, hope your not mad at me.
     
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    No, its cool, I'm pretty reasonable, I know not everyone will like everything I write. It's cool getting honest feedback though.
     

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    The Angelina Jolie pictures are priceless! :D
     
  14. Davidk

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    That one kind of sucks though, she's too bundled up. lol
     
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    i don't completely understand, but i agree that it is well written.
     
  16. Madigan

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    (and I sit here chuckling once again) hehehe

    Don't worry Fats, it's a first person narrative.
    But you're right though, it was well written.
     
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    It could use a rewrite, sorry if that hurts you, but perhaps rephrase a few lines to build up emotion or work on getting to the end.

    So far, very good stuff. A+
     
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    Nothing hurts me. I dont even remember writing this.

    thanks anyways though everyone.
     
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