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[Floris]

I feel so embarrassed that all I am now is how I think or feel, and for some reason, I can't get myself to a doctor. I just don't believe anymore that this can all be fixed. And I do not want the next few years of my life to be about recovery. I just wanted to live my life.

It is so hard to describe what I think or feel. I am sorry that all I am is negative. I hardly recognize myself sometimes.
I feel like all I am is everybody else's problem. I do not know anymore, sometimes.

I'm sorry.

 

[Nix]

Sending hugs

 

[Floris]

tnx

 

[Floris]

spring 2026,

thinks are better
i am better
i am not great, but it's better and better than 2025, and 2025 was better than 2025.

It sucks how deep and low i can get, but i.. see .. progress.. slowly.

 

[Nix]

Progress is good... even if little bit by little bit.