The more I think about it, and how many little things I still need to spend money on for my own hobbies, .. I feel kinda weird about compromising for myself yet again, cutting down on groceries, and sitting in the cold for electricity bill .. and then spending money to give nice things to others.
I really feel like it's important for myself that I dont' feel bad about that, and not do much for Christmas this year, despite the intentions originally.
Let's just get through the Winter, have these last 3+ years behind me, focus on myself for a few months first. And then be there for those around me again.
Still 50/50 about it though.