Sad news, my mother has to go to a retirement home. And this hit me as a bomb. To top that, when we heard the news she got sick for a few days. We're on the recovering side of that, and she got the news too. We called yesterday and the 9th of February she has to move. This means that the farm will have things that need to get moved. Some to me as well. My apartment was a mess due to depression. It's even worse now. I am fighting to find motivation to do anything in life right now. Honestly. Fighting.
Trying my best to get up from the bed and chair behind the computer, and pick up things to bring to the kitchen. To wash stuff, to clean things, to tidy whatever. I hope I get into a cycle and come to peace with my emotions and thoughts. Even writing this post is a lot harder than I thought. Sorry for being a negative nancy.
But Hopefully I write this here and feel obligated to keep up the good work and keep fighting.
It's time to finish my coffee, clean the coffee and kitchen machines. Wipe off the cubborts and put things in their right place. Slowly build towards filling up the washing machine and do laundry, the dishwasher, and make a start. If I see it helps, maybe it helps me take the next step after and work on the living room. So at least people can come here and put things down. I can then spend years putting them in their right place I guess.
I have a room that needs to get cleaned out and cleaned, I have not touched it in ages besides 'open door, dump bag with papers or things and close door again'. And almost none of it in there can be thrown out either. I wouldn't know where to start. A problem for another day.
Than you all for keeping this thread going, it helps me, honestly.
Best of luck with your own struggles, from big to small ones. Eventually there's progress right? Messy house - messy mind .. let's try to fix that.