Fighting with myself again, really trying to do my best here.
I've been sleeping horribly, 2 hours again after being up 26 hours.
I've cancelled the lady who comes to do my hair, will reschedule.
And the doorbell to the whole apartment complex doesn't work, which complicates deliveries. I tried to get things done on Monday, and I'm still rescheduling things and waiting all day for new pickup. which doesn't help as DHL has been horrible with making an effort. etc.
Anyway, to get some sleep, I cancelled my appointments for this week, I am not going to stress about getting visitors either, not going to clean the apartment with a deadline. ill just do what I can. and ill try to nap when I need the rest and ill take sleeping pills. if I keep missing the delivery ppl, so be it. I'm not going to sit here 24/7 waiting for them to bother to come upstairs or not.